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January 30, 2007
Transition...
I'm in transition right now. I'll be graduating in May and don't know where I'll end up. I feel like dreams have been let go. It seems like God is leading me down roads that I never expected...and I'm scared. Making commitments means I have to leave other plans behind, for the time being anyway.
I came to Covenant with sure expectations that were eventually taken away from me. Since then, God has led me down a path that has been really good, but tough to keep following...and with no idea what would be waiting on me at the finish line. I would never in a million years take away what I have learned and become since I've been here, and yet I guess I'm a little dissapointed with what I've got at this point. People say that it's not the destination, but the journey that's important. It's hard to remember that in a time like this. Thank God that I have His sovereignty to rest in. If I'm honest, there are times when I have little faith in God and that He will take care of me. I ask the same question that King David does in Psalms, "How long, O Lord, will you forget me forever?"
It would be ridiculous to compare my trials and tribulations to that of Moses, but in a sense, I identify with him. I feel like I've been walking in the desert for years and am scared that I'll never get to go where I'm headed, whatever that is.
As hokey as it may seem...the works of Christ give me hope. He did not come for those that have it all together (which is actually no one) but for the lost, out-of-control, and those, like me, who are still in the waiting line. I am so glad to serve a God who knows the human experience well. He hears my prayers and He identifies with my fears and frustrations. He's more than a living sacrifice, He's an older brother who has walked before us and felt the pain, hurt, sadness, and insecurities of life...therefore, He comforts me in this time of transition.
| By Nathan Gemayel | 6:32 PM
Comments
Thanks for this post and being vulnerable-
"He did not come for those that have it all together (which is actually no one) but for the lost, out-of-control, and those, like me, who are still in the waiting line."
Great statement!
Posted by: Heidi at January 30, 2007 10:43 PM
It's me again. This time with something real to say......This blog entry is why I love blogs so much. You, the writer, are able to express your human side and me, the reader, am GLAD there are people who don't have it all together as well. Most people would never admit to it! EVERYONE has that inner struggle with between God's soverereignty and our own desires. Only God knows what is best and it is when we take comfort that we are not in control, can we find peace (althought it may take a while for us.) Anywho, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers! You could be happy anywhere....even in the back kitchen bustin them moves!
Mary Ellen
Posted by: Mary El at January 30, 2007 11:28 PM