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March 26, 2007

Ti-i-i-ime is NOT on My Side

Wow, it has been a long while. I'm going to say what I always hate hearing from others, "I've been sooo busy." When does life get to be such that we have to ride with the wind? I guess that comes with the heap of graduation and working and internship and relationships and the like. One thing I know I need to do when I finally graduate and enter into life as a 40-hour-a-week person is to learn how to say "no" and recognize what it means to have boundaries that are not selfish.
One of my problems is that my hopes and dreams are always all over the place...I love art and really enjoy print-making...which takes time, I love people and long to see people have a thankful view of Christ and His grace...which takes time in relationship, I love music and movies and appreciate what can be learned by creators of songs and film...which takes time, and, of course, as Will Ferrell is my hero, I've wondered for a few years what it would be like if I had the chance to do what he does on a local level...which would take time, I love my Spanish friends overseas and really like keeping in touch with them via email/letters...which takes time, last but certainly not least, I enjoy being a part of the blogosphere...which takes time, if done well.
I'd like to say in as humblest a way as possible that the further I get in life the more refined and specific my interests become...something to be thankful for. I also become more aware of who I am and why I have been made the way I am. As overly emotional and over-the-top as I can be, I have learned to appreciate being me. (I realize how Stuart Smalley that statement just was) Anyway, having knowledge of what I am becoming and also what my interests are gives me freedom to invest in other people that much more. I don't know what it is, but it seems like somewhere in your late 20s you begin to be less concerned of self and more of the people around you. (Not that I don't dream on a daily basis about getting myself an ibook or the 80-gig ipod, but I do that less than I used to)
Anyway, this entry was originally about time and how it leaves us. I think one thing to start thinking is...what happens if someone needs me? Will I be able to say, "Yes, I can be there." It seems that God has a plan for all of us to be in relationship with each other...in real/authentic relationships, which takes time. How can I do that if I'm going after the gold in every aspect of my life...I can't. I'm not always going to have Blades of Glory, if you will. But if I learn to say "yes" to time and to relationships and "no" to some parts of the everything, then what needs to be a part of my dreams and aspirations will be there.

| By Nathan Gemayel | 10:34 PM

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